async If I force myself thru it I can get to a point where it almost feels like the eyes shut off or I fall asleep while keeping them open.
For what it's worth, this never happened in my life until I bought the 14" M1 Max 2021 MacBook Pro, which is when it started happening every single day — then, after I finally stopped using it and switched to using another laptop for a few months, this symptom totally stopped happening.
I really suggest you stop using the mini-LED MacBook Pro as pushing myself to use it further just made it worse and worse.
(Even the M2 Air I'm testing right now, despite still thinking it's not an enjoyable screen to use and still experiencing reading issues with it compared to devices that cause no issue at all, is nowhere near on the level of bad that the mini-LED M1 14" Pro is. I can even tolerate OLED better than my 14" Pro.)
Something to note is that I bought the computer, experienced all of these symptoms, and stopped using it (after about a year of using it), all before I even learned about LED strain. I barely even knew what PWM was at the time LOL.
It was actually when I finally started feeling WAY better, after not using it for a while, when it finally clicked for me that it was the computer, given that the 2015 12" MacBook I had switched to looked so clean and crisp in comparison that it felt like I had entirely different eyes depending on which laptop I looked at. That's when I looked up something along the lines of "blurry text, hard to discern pixel-perfect edges even on native resolution, and overly-3D-looking window shadows on mini-LED MacBook Pro" and found this forum for the first time.
(This also made me realize that for as long as I can remember, i.e. again before I knew about PWM or knew I was sensitive to similar things, I've been turning the lights on and off in the house because it's always felt "too bright" or "too dim" to me or the walls appeared "both kinda dullish grey and white at the same time and just very muddy".
Finally, just 6 months ago, I swapped out the generic LED bulbs that were literally 100% flicker depth — even worse than flourescent — with some 2700K Waveform Centric lights and literally never have needed to adjust lights since. Colors look like the 2000s again.)
I also get really tired and find it hard to breathe after drinking milk. However, I don't have any issues with white rice, just ate some right now in fact LOL. Maybe there's different varieties of white rice, I know there's some "really soggy tasting ones" that I just avoid since they seem to upset my stomach, so maybe I've never had the kind of white rice that you've had a problem with haha
I don't think I have visual snow. However, there is a very very very minor grainy affect on my vision, basically the same as the grain an iPhone camera picks up but less strong. It becomes way more noticeable the darker the room gets. Still not significant enough though, I only notice it when I'm looking for it, it is there all the time technically but my brain just filters it out I guess. From people's descriptions of what visual snow is, this doesn't seem like that, it's also not snow-like at all.
I also have a weird effect when I look at the sky that looks like "a bunch of blurry faint black circles at the center of my vision quickly moving inwards over and over" that will also remain visible for a bit after I stop looking the sky. If I look really high up in the sky I also begin to notice "firefly-like" moving bright white sparkly points darting around really quickly. All of this only happens when I look at the sky, nowhere else, so I don't usually pay much attention to it. I just have accepted it as normal for a while, but of course I don't think most people see like this.
I've had these sky and graininess effects since 2013 at latest. Started having what I now retroactively call mild screen strain (but totally didn't realize it at the time) in 2017 after upgrading to a 2016 13" MacBook Pro, which honestly was a really tolerable and generally fine laptop in comparison to many others, but still had some weirdness when reading that I don't experience on truly good laptops. I was impulsively switching to my old Windows laptop many times I needed to focus on writing a really long document, even though I didn't yet know why I was doing that at the time.
Finally, started having REALLY bad screen strain after purchasing both an iPhone 12 and the M1 Max 14" MacBook Pro in 2021. The 14" Pro is the main culprit here.
Something important to note is that I don't have migraines or epilepsy. I had one event in my whole life that resembled a migraine in high school, nothing before or after that. Concerts with the craziest flashing strobe lights ever are also 100% fine to me, in fact sometimes I feel really good and feel like I have an expanded field of vision after going to a concert. It's only "invisible" events such as when there's lights that are supposedly doing one thing (looking still) but actually doing something else (flashing on and off or temporally dithering) that is the problem for me.
For reference, I am 21 years old (Gen Z). I'm probably one of the youngest people on this forum…
hyperexcitability triggers can provide adaptation and reduced strain. So in some cases this constant strive for eliminating all strain might actually make people more sensitive.
I understand what this means, however there is a lot of nuance to this in terms of meaning what you think it means.
Counterexample: I don't think finding the working devices I still owned and going back to using them made me any more sensitive, after all I had been having issues with the flickering LEDs in my house for years even before I knew that they were the reason behind why the house always felt weird and too dim despite "looking" bright. And trying to tolerate my mini-LED MBP more and more just made it worse.
In fact, using my working devices has allowed my eyes to relax, heal, and expand my field of vision in a way where suddenly I am seeing things again that I hadn't seen for a very, very long time.
But… on the other hand: The quote totally applies in certain situations. As long as you don't have something that would prevent you from doing this like epilepsy, literally adding an overlay window on my mini-LED MacBook Pro screen that visibly strobes black and transparent over and over, or an overlay of really intense moving grain over the screen — both of these I'm fine with looking at and weirdly enough find more comfortable to my eyes than the normal feeling of looking at the mini-LED.
And when I turn the overlay off after using the computer with it for ~15 minutes… suddenly, it feels like the screen is super clean looking, like "real life is running at a higher framerate", and turning my head around feels so much more smooth. It makes me wonder "is how I'm feeling right how like, the way a typical person actually sees??"
In essence, exposing myself to visible/obvious flicker and motion seems to make me less sensitive to invisible/subliminal flicker and motion. Reccomended if possible!
However, just "tolerating" invisible flicker like temporally dithered screens and 120hz LED lightbulbs over and over again has simply made things worse and has caused longer term impact to my vision. Not reccomended!
Finding better screens is still 100% worth it and has made my vision better overall! Also, using better lightbulbs in the home has actually made me more tolerant to bad lightbulbs in other locations!
BTW,
Totally random and out of the blue question:
Do you have synesthesia?
I've always wondered whether it (which I do experience) is connected to why I am extremely sensitive to and notice very, very small or subtle motions & patterns, or if it's just a coincidence, lol.